Sunday, July 20, 2008

Moving on, a simple way of saying Good bye..

the laughters, spreads the good news of new company and friendship were established. the taught, waving in saying that "i am happy because i am with people who really love and care for me". the smile, creates the moment of shared triumphs and failures. the hugs, relates different individuals with different belief in life.
yes! indeed, we came a long in different perspectives in life. we have our own dazzling journey, we may came across because of co incidence. i am therefore, pledge that i am one of their co incidence as they're mine to hold. for such, i have taking wisdom of how i learned life because i was given the opportunity to experience true friendship. in my life, i longed for a true commitment, a loyalty and cruelty aside. a quest for freedom and co existence. i live my life so ordinary, as simple as define by human standards. i continue journeying beyond definition, i conquered problems which entails my human desire. however, there are reasons in which i may deprive my self of having of, there are boundary to which i owe my liberty, and there are situation which i cannot continue my quest. all i have know, freedom has its own limitation. people tend to go beyond limit because they believe, only they can define their limitations. only they, have the power to say what is good and what is best. yet, does it make sense at all? for the fact, even when they're unborn, they have a limitation. yes! when they are inside their mother's womb, they have already limitation. a limitation set by God. why am i saying freedom, limitations, and friendship? how does it relates to saying good bye? well, freedom to choose our friends is definitely divine, for we are given the opportunity to enjoy life with co existence and harmony. we have the power to change each others lives. we have the innate desire to feel comfortable, acceptance, loyalty and love. a taste of friendship! however, friendship is also limited, for friendship doesn't goes beyond reason and boundaries contrary to what others mean about it. friendship is not absolute, so many limitations entrusts in it. but though it is not absolute yet so divine, in sense of, it doesn't requires commitment still it goes through, limited yet continually aspiring.
damn it! i really hate it! i really hate to have so many friends yet few remains. i don't know what's the problem or who had the problem? well i guess, its me. nobody will accept it anyway so i put on the blame on me. i am the problem. i have a problem. so better the problem comes to worst, its better for me to say good bye to friends that i have. to save them from cruelty and enormous destruction of my life. i am a friend but i am not a warrior. i can be their friend forever but hell, i cannot protect them for the rest of their lives. i, and i will remain loyal to them but in fate still, i am no longer with them. for destiny i desire, i will sacrifice them to gain my self and restore the wounded soul of dying soldier! i will leave them but they will remain in my heart. i am letting go but i still hold on to the promise of reuniting once again.
for the reason that i will leave, it is not important anymore. i will take just for my self alone. somehow they have already the idea, but for sure they wouldn't understand it so why i explain. i hope they still holding on while i am moving on..


3 comments:

zearaiza said...

hehe.... uyyy, nalingaw jud xa....

drop by sa'kin..

miss u

zearaiza said...

nakasampung pindot na ako teng... hehe. lingawa oi.... au2x dira. no more politics for me.... pure public service, yes. hehe....

miss u

zearaiza said...

uyyyyyyyyy...... kumustah na?